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Juliann
18 on 3/25

The Company I Keep

Inspired

Easter Sunday

The Getty

Hello Spring

70s

Things I miss about the decade:

i was young
i got three playmates (2 brothers & 1 sister)
playing outdoors until late at night
spending my summer vacation with my cousins
trips to disneyland on my birthday
$1 went a loooong way
walking home from school with friends
the milder weather
the music
riding the bus (riding the bus feels like a chore now)
the innocence
my only job was going to school
after school activities
visiting family on the weekends
making my own slip-n-slide from a plastic runner

Dreams

Crossing Over

Beauty Queen

A Perfect Life?

Loops of Memories

The smell of wet dirt and roasted corn remind me of the time I spent in Mexico with my Grandmother.

Urban

Only in the kind of neighborhood that I live in can you find these kinds of storefronts.

My Perfect Day

very little traffic on my way to work. bright cheery sunshine all around.

lunch with a friend & a bowl of albondigas soup from my favorite restaurant.

a catch-up phone call with my sister. my favorite kind of calls.

a pleasant drive home from work. the traffic gods were definitely smiling on me.

some quality time with my mom even if it's only for a half hour.

lots of loud and really bad singing (english & spanish) in my car lately.

noticing my environment, finding the little corner gems and having my camera handy.

Hope, Faith & Dreams

Hold on to hope, keep faith and never, ever give up on dreams.

40

On day two, I'm indulging on left-over birthday cake, reading birthday cards that made it into my mailbox this morning and making plans for the year.

Change of Scenery

Gift

Each day is a gift, but today is a special gift. Happy Leap Day!

Her Journey

My heart is full with love, and I feel like I'm going to burst at the seams at how proud I am of her.

She has started to search for answers. No longer relying in only God to give her the answers or begging Him to tell her what to do next, she has started to help herself, which I'm sure is what He wanted her to do all along. She's finding her voice and is realizing that she's not a victim. Soon, she'll stop wondering about what she could have done or should have done differently. Truth be told, she did the only thing she knew to do--love deeply and fiercely.

I pray for strength and courage to get her through the trips and stumbles. I pray for love and support to get her through the roadblocks and negative thoughts. I pray for laughter and hugs to encourage her to keep going. But more importantly, I pray in appreciation for her and her journey.

5 Grateful Things

(1) That the weather has made a change. Finally. I took this picture last week when we experienced three storms back-to-back that dumped cold rain and strong winds on us. That has all changed because today it's beautiful!

(2) That I got a late start today and was able to enjoy the morning outdoors instead of sitting in my office and enjoying it through my office window.

(3) That I have my favorite snack--grapes--with me today.

(4) That we're one step closer to buying another house. *fingers crossed*

(5) That not only did I get a late start at work, BUT I'm leaving early. I get to enjoy a fun function with my family. Oh, and I have my camera with me!

Hello Old Friend

I've started to take pictures of the bridge again.

Happy Valentine's Day

Reason 6,368 why I love my husband:
He surprised his 10-year old with an afternoon visit to her school and lunch from her favorite restaurant. Swoon.

Have I already mentioned that when she turned 3, he baked her a cake, frosted it pink, added sprinkles, AND treated her pre-school classmates with an impromptu surprise party? **I realize that moms do this all the time for their kiddies. I applaud whatever parent shows up for their children.**

Downtown Los Angeles

Kindness

If only, . . .

last night,
she said she was tired
she said she was sick and tired of being sick and tired
she said she was having a bad day
she said she hated her job
she said she hated where she lived
she said she hated her commute
she said she was dying inside
she said she was tired of keeping it together
she said she didn't want one more person tell her how good she looked
she said she lost her faith
she said she didn't know what to do next
she said she was tired of being nice
she said she couldn't hear one more person say how good things are
she said she wanted to go away
she said she didn't know how much longer she could hold on
she said she wished she felt better because she really wanted to help
she said she wanted her old life back

finally, she cried. she cried hard.

if only, she knew how much she helped me last night.

Life Lessons

Falling or Flying

The best thing you can do is learn to let go.
It's hard, I know.

But, it's important for you. For me. For her. For him. For us.

At first, you might feel like you're falling.
But, I promise
Soon you'll be flying.

At Lunch

This is part of a conversation I overheard at lunch today:

Her: We would be so good together.
Him: It's just that I don't want a girlfriend right now.
Her: Yeah, but, we have so much fun together. I'll be good. I'll be fun.
Him: Well, I'm trying to figure things out with--
Her: But, I'm the one here with you today not her. And, all your friends like me. We could be one big group hanging out doing fun things.
Him: Did I tell you, I'm going to see my parents this weekend. They're coming out to see me.
Her: *reaching over to touch his arm * I love your parents, and I would get along with them. I want us to have what they have.

Kindness

I have been told that the smallest act of kindness can make a difference to someone.

Pause

"I only do this until I get dizzy & then I lay down on my back & watch the clouds, she said. It sounds simple but you won't believe how many people forget the second part." --Brian Andreas

Listening

Friday Afternoon

The Old & The New

It's Good To Be Me

It's good to be me because, while on a trip to San Francisco, this talented gentleman serenaded me.

Window

Out of all the people in our office,

I think I have the best view because:

I have a breathtaking view of Mt. Wilson

In the Summer, it glows under the afternoon sun

and

In the Winter, its peaks are often capped in snow.

I also have the perfect view of the Colorado Street Bridge

I love its old-world charm

complete with old-fashion street lights.

I love it so much that I've used it as a backdrop for a few photos.

This morning something horrible happened

the act was so horrible that it has tarnished my beautiful view.

A man jumped to his death from the bridge

but not before killing his wife and mother-in-law.

Possibilities

"Tell me what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?"

--Mary Oliver

Being Present

Mirror

it's that time of year when i reflect on my actions and decisions of the past year.

i make a few lists every year:

the first is a list of all the things i want to leave behind

the second is a list of all the things i learned

and the third is a list of all the things i'm hopeful for in the new year.

i've decided to leave behind viewing a situation in my life as a punishment

instead, i'm choosing to see it as getting a chance at a different life

of shaking things up

of reinventing things

and of uncovering dreams that where put away for another life.

i dream of being deserving and accepting of all the good in my life:

the perks of my job

not freaking out over finances

continued travel

enjoying my hobbies

good health

and

fun times with friends and family.

Light

The mountains, rivers, grasses, trees and forests are always emanating subtle, precious light,
day and night, always emanating a subtle, precious sound, demonstrating and expounding to all
people the unsurpassed ultimate truth.
-Yuan-Sou

Regret

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Belated

she's smart

she's generous

she's strong

she's a risk taker

she's brave

she's helpful

she's genuine

she's loyal

she's thoughtful

she's beautiful

she's his twin

she's my sister.

happy belated birthday, sweets.

Belated

He's thoughtful

He's smart

He's caring

He's an awesome friend

He's loyal

He's a strong athlete

He's is committed

He's a damn good dresser

He's loved by many

He's handsome

He's her twin

He's my brother.

Happy belated birthday!

Stand

when your heart tells you one thing

and your mind tells you another

and, you've done all you can do

just stand

It's Official

Sunday

Familia

This pile of homemade tamales were made by my family.

They look delicious, right? They are.

Seeing this picture of our tamales makes me happy for everything it represents.

It represents a family coming together.

It represents a family who enjoys each other's company.

It represents a family who welcomes everyone and makes first-timers feel right at home.

It represents a family who doesn't shy away from hard work.

It represents a family who values tradition.

It represents a family who embraces their heritage.

It represents the love that we feel for one another.

This pile of tamales has been one of the greatest gifts from our grandmother, who as our matriarch, always had one wish--that we always stay connected. The year after our grandmother's death, we came up with the idea of getting together as a family the first Saturday of December to make tamales. (We decided on the first Saturday of the month because her birthday was December 2.)

That was nine years ago.

This year, as always, we came together as a family. We welcomed two new members to our tribe, and they meshed right into our family. There was a lot of conversation and a lot of laughter at the assembly table this year. As usual, it was messy and fun.

Generosity

Did I already mention that this Double Digits Girl is not only thoughtful but also generous?

She asked that I take her shopping last weekend because she had birthday money that was burning a hole in her pocket. While at the mall, we walked into one of my favorite stores Bath & Body Works. Because she knows I love this store, she followed me around and helped me pick out new lotions to smell and each time asked if I liked it. Every time I said yes, she turned the bottle over and looked at the price tag. Each time returning the bottle to the shelf when she realized that it was too expensive for her budget. When I realized that she wanted to buy me a Christmas gift, I walked over to the sample-size section of the store. She picked out a 3-piece set in the same fragrance that earlier I had raved about. She looked at the price and, while it was more expensive than the others, she held on to it. She whispered to me, "If you really like it, I'd like to get it for you."

In case you're wondering, YES, her generosity melted my heart. She had $20 and this set of lotions would have used up all her money, but it didn't matter to her. At that moment, what mattered to her was to make me happy. And, she did. She made me very happy and proud, and it didn't even cost her any money.

A Message to 3 Boys

Brody, Elijah, & Noah

December '07

Listen to Mustn'ts, child, listen to the Don'ts.

Listen to the Shouldn'ts, the Impossibles, the Won'ts.

Listen to the Never Haves, then listen close to me.

Anything can happen, child, Anything can be.

-Shel Silverstein