Photo by R. ZepedaIt's been 1 year and 6 months, but it feels like it was just yesterday
That I go the call to tell me he was gone.
She struggled to find the right words
And when she finally found them
They brought with them the awful, awful silence.
The silence made me feel like my heart was going to explode.
I remember hanging up the phone
I struggled with not knowing what to do
Then again the awful silence
This time the silence brought with it desperation.
The desperation to hold something that once had his fingerprints
A letter
A card
A picture
Anything.
I remember not finding anything
I struggled with my tears and my aching heart
And, again the silence. That deafening eerie silence.
I remember surrendering to it
I sat in it
I let it surround me
I let it clear my head.
I remember that beautiful and sweet silence
It let me be
It calmed my heart
It dried my tears
But more importantly
It gave me strength
The strength to go forward.
Yes, my heart still aches for him
But, I trust that he's in a place of complete beauty, peace and freedom.
Yes, I wish we had more time to spend together
But, I'm glad & grateful for the time we had.
Maybe next time.
